Saturday, 29 March 2014

A Drawing of a Bathroom



This is an another drawing I did while on holiday.

The painting on the wall with black frame is a Cassigneul.

Saturday, 22 February 2014

How Love Blossoms

Love is indeed like a flower. It will blossom only under right conditions and you can never force it to blossom. We can only guess at what those right conditions are. But we know that the right conditions are generated by another love. Love is born out of Love.

Friday, 7 February 2014

Let it Snow

I heard that it's definitely going to start snowing tonight!

I drew this picture to express my excitement LOL


Monday, 3 February 2014

"Envy" by Bertrand Russell

A summary of the essay "Envy," from the book The Conquest of Happiness by Betrand Russell.
Most words have been taken directly from the essay.
 
If you have never come across the essay, you should read it yourself.
It's very entertaining, especially the part about peacocks!


Introduction
...one of the most potent causes of unhappiness is envy.
Envy...is one of the most universal and deep-seated of human passions.
The emotion is just as prevalent among adults as among children.  

Envy is the basis of democracy.


Envy and the Society
Envy is...closely connected with competition. We do not envy a good fortune which we conceive as quite hopelessly out of our reach.
In an age when the social hierarchy is fixed, the lowest classes do not envy the upper classes so long as the division between rich and poor is thought to be ordained by God.

The instability of social status in the modern world, and the equalitarian doctrine of democracy and socialism, have greatly extended the range of envy.

The harmful effects of Envy
Of all the characteristics of ordinary human nature envy is the most unfortunate; not only does the envious person wish to inflict misfortune and do so whenever he can with impunity, but he is also himself rendered unhappy by envy.
Instead of deriving pleasure from what he has, he derives pain from what others have.


The Cure for Envy
  • Don't compare yourself with others
The habit of thinking in terms of comparisons is a fatal one. When anything pleasant occurs it should be enjoyed to the full, without stopping to think that it is not so pleasant as something else that may possibly be happening to someone else.

With the wise man, what he has does not case to be enjoyable because someone else has something else.
Envy, in fact, is one form of vice, partly moral, partly intellectual, which consists in seeing things never in themselves, but only in their relations.

You cannot...get away from envy by means of success alone, for there will always be in history or legend some person even more successful than you are.
You can get away from envy by enjoying the work that you have to do, and by avoiding comparisons with those whom you imagine, perhaps quite falsely, to be more fortunate than yourself.

  • Don't be too modest
Modest people believe themselves to be outshone by those with whom they habitually associate.
They are therefore particularly prone to envy, and, through envy, to unhappiness and ill will.
For my part, I think there is much to be said for bringing up a boy to think himself a fine fellow.

  • Reduce Fatigue
  • Secure a life which is satisfying to instinct
Much envy that seems purely professional really has a sexual source. A man who is happy in his marriage and his children is not likely to feel much envy of other men because of their greater wealth or success...

The essentials of human happiness are simple, so simple that sophisticated people cannot abring themselves to admit what it is they really lack.


Conclusion
If there is to be less envy, means must be found for remedying this state of affiars, and if no such means are found our civilisation is in danger of going down to destruction in an orgy of hatred.

 ...the human heart as modern civilisation has made it is prone to hatred than to friendship. And it is prone to hatred because it is dissatisfied, because it feels deeply, perhaps even unconsciously, that it has somehow missed the meaning of life, that perhaps others, but not we ourselves, have secured the good things which nature offers man's enjoyment.
The positive sum of pleasures in a modern man's life is undoubtedly greater than was to be found in more primitive communities, but the consciousness of what might be has increased even more.

 〔Civilised man〕 knows there is something better than himself almost within his grasp, yet he does not know where to seek it or how to find it.
In despair he rages against his fellow man, who is equally lost and equally unhappy.

Envy...evil as it is, and terrible as are its effects, is not wholly of the devil. It is in part the expression of an heroic pain, the pain of those who walk through the night blindly, perhaps to a better resting-place, perhaps only to death and destruction.

To find the right road out of this despair civilised man must enlarge his heart as he has enlarged his mind. He must learn to transcend self, and in so doing to acquire the freedom of the Universe.


Saturday, 1 February 2014

What I drew today

I've just finished drawing this picture this morning using pastel pencils.



Wednesday, 29 January 2014

Apples are red?

It is rather sad that I always have to borrow things in order to express myself.

I didn't invent words in the first place.
I say, "apples are red." But was I the first person to call the sweet, rounded fruit "an apple"? Was I the first person to name the colour of the apple's skin "red"?  No. I'm only following in someone's footsteps in saying "apples are red." I can only experience the "apple" and the "redness" in an indirect manner. Because how else can I express "the apple" or "red"?
With the apple, I can say, like I did just now, it's a "sweet, rounded fruit," but none of these words - "sweet," "rounded" or "fruit" - belong to me.

Do words only serve to create an alienation between the real world and me?

Certainly, I feel different when I'm using English from when I'm using Japanese or Chinese. 
Of course that's because each of these languages requires me to operate in a unique, distinctive cultural context. Even when I met a Japanese person in England, I wished to communicate in English with him/her, because I was loath to switch from my English persona to my Japanese persona. 

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I wear clothes that someone else created, I eat cuisines that someone else invented, and someone else teaches that to be a proper woman/adult I have to conform to certain social/cultural codes.
Sometimes I'm lost in a sea of signs, symbols and images, and my whole life seems like a borrowed life, and nothing in it is ever genuine or can be called "mine."

But I cannot denounce the whole world and go into the mountains to lead a life of a hermit.
If I wish to continue living among people and continue relating to the world, must I lead a life of collage? Must I keep using borrowed words, wear borrowed clothes, imitate the burrowed images of a proper adult?  If I go into the desert and spend 40 days there, will I be able to get back my genuine self? I don't think so. When the 40 days are over, I will have to go back to the world, and it will be the same all over again.

Monday, 27 January 2014

Nostalgia

This is a piece of music I recently composed.

I started composing music only a few months ago so I still have a lot to learn.




All the pictures are taken from Andrei Tarkovsky's films.

Thursday, 2 January 2014

Living Truthfully

What will a man gain by winning the whole world, at the cost of his true self?
Or what can he give that will buy that self back?
(Matthew 16:26)

The answer is NOTHING for both questions.

I am not a Christian, so how I see Jesus is that he was simply a man who tried to live as himself, in accordance with his own values.

He suffered greatly for it, and he continued to doubt his course of action right up till the end.
Perhaps it was not a happy life, but there are things in life more important than seeking to build a life that is commonly judged as "happy" by others.


You can choose to live like a "saint" or become a martyr of the truth you believe in.